sweet surrender

2010-07-16T17:27:00.002+08:00

I've Been To Hell & Back.

Life has been bliss. For NOW.
Yes, for now.
Who knows what else Allah has planned for me.

Well, I've been taking things slow, going from day to day, building the trust that was far long gone.

I need my girls. No. I WANT my girls. I need to see them.
I wanna let loose. Anyone?

Ok so, 2 more days. 2 more days to mark our Sixth Year together.
Yeah, u bet im proud. People say im dumb to persevere, that im stupid to hold on and that i deserve so much better.
Yes, i somehow agree. But sometimes when we are together, and when he treats me so good, i just keep forgetting how he treats me so bad and so, i keep running back.

Well, they say love is blind.

So we're hoping for the better and we'll see how it goes.
Aniways, we are planning for our long awaited honeymoon which is 3 years late. LOL.
Can't Wait !!!!!!

And to my love, here's to you in advance.

Happy 6th Year Anniversary Darling.
You know i love you, and i will always stay true.
Hugs & Kisses.

2010-05-31T05:27:00.003+08:00

In life you need one thing to survive.

Its simply the ability to realize shit happens.

You step in it, you accept it, you get the fuck over it, and you keep walking.

I can totally relate to the quote above right now.

Moving on is like, the best thing to do.

No doubt, its hard. But like i'd said, this is my fight. And i'll fight till i've achieved success and happiness.

Whats done cannot be undone.

I can only hope and pray things will get better.

With the help of my loved ones, hopefully my willpower will increase and grow stronger.

These past few days i've been told im not the one at the losing end.

I was told, i was not to blame and i have every right to live my life the way i think i should.

That is, to fill it with love & joy. Pain is no doubt, parts & parcel of life.

Therefore, i've got to stand on my own 2 feet and look ahead.

Im one strong girl, i'll survive.

I've survived 6 years of this, i should be able to endure this one.

True much?

Thanks to my loved ones, i've got the strength to overcome this.

And to you, i love you so very much. As i always had.

I know it hurts you as well. You loved me wholeheartedly.

I know, your love has never wavered. Not an inch.

But i've got to learn. I've got to teach u a thing or two.

I've learnt about survival, and u should too.

People see you betraying, thinking your love has never matched mine.

But only i know you. Only i know the REAL you.

You've ever only cried for me, noone else.

That, i gotta take some credit.

I was the only one who managed to make u cry.

You bet im proud!

So lets start a new chapter.

Lets build this new relationship on a whole new level.

I don't wanna lose what we have built this far.

You are my love, my superstar.

2010-05-27T22:42:00.004+08:00

A s i expected, my happiness was shortlived.

My fingers are shivering as type this, hot tears streaming down...

I was so very happy just few months ago...And while it was bad before the shortlived happiness, it has gotten far worse now..Im at my deepest stage of depression right now..I'll be mad in no time soon..Having noone to share this with certainly will speed that up..

Im in no position to be a good mom & daughter at this current stage..

Everything's falling apart..I've never been so down before..My heart is breaking into pieces...

How i wish, things have gone way differently back then..Im not ashame of it..I , i confess, i regret everything..You all may laugh but this, i really got to learn..This is my fight..Im so tired, i have no strength to do so..Running away may not be the wisest choice..But this is what i have to do, to straighthen myself up, to build my confidence.I know im losing it but i can't help it..I've had suicidal thoughts but no, my kids still need me. My parents still want me..Only the person that i truly want doesn't want me enough like before..Im at my wits end..I don't know what i should do..Is this really the end or is this all a joke, a test? I wished i had treated my friends better, im sure they are laughing right this minute..My only confidante is not with me, she, the one who will tell me, '' be strong, pick urself up! don't lose it! '' but she's not here to tell me to. Im running around in circles, searching for a place to hide, to escape from this all..Allah, pls help me. Please show me the way, guide me to the path where i'll learn to accept all this and truly move on.....

2010-05-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

BELLA - I MISS YOU TOO BABE & YOU CAN SAY HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN. COS LET ME TELL YOU, I MISS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH TOO! I MISS US. ALL OF US! BILA NAK REUNION OIIIIIII ??? JOM PLAN LA GIRLS!

Okay, lets see.

1. we've finally decided that enough is enough. we need help so its about time. we went to cdc for financial help.

2. been trying to apply for rental flat through HDB shitty website more than 5 times but to no avail. have to make a trip all the way down to toa payoh. nabei lu.

3. hunnie looking for new job.

4. daughter's school is killing me with the homeworks and fees.

5. workplace has been hell. i thought i was enjoying it till last week. so not! aku nk lari.

6. i can't breath in my own damn fcuking house thanks to someone. dad says, ''buat bodo sudah la. this is your house what no matter what. pekak kan telinga suda la.'' but hey, if i can't even eat, watch tv, sleep as and when i like in my so called OWN HOUSE, what for? grrrrrr.

7. i need my friends. i need the ' all hell break loose ' kind of reunion. i wanna let myself go for once, just to release all my stress.

8. i need to CLUB!!

9. i fell out with one of my best girls again. because of....... MONEY. yeah, true. so shitty. fcuk friendship.

10. once i have my own house, i'll have a big party! you all owe me one!

K, NITES !!!

2010-05-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

Younger Days.

Awwww. So Chubby!!

Perfect In My Eyes.

Candid Shot.

Papa's Favourite.

The Younger Ria.

Sis & Me.

We're Quite The Opposites.

She, The Temperamental One.

Me, The Bubbly One.

Im Bored.

Guess I've Lost The Kick In Blogging.

Im In Cloud 9 Right Now But I Don't Have Any Idea What To Update.

Shoot Me. Goodnight.

2010-04-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

My Dear Turned 21 On Saturday.

Seems Like Just Yesterday We Celebrated His 16th.

We Went Fishing As Part Of The Celebration And Spent 2 Whole Nights At Changi Beach.

Had A Blast, Had Blisters & Aches All Over Too. (:

But Everything Was Worth It, You Were Worth All Of It.

May The Force Be With You, May You Be Blessed With Good Health.

Good Luck & Best Wishes.

I Will Always Love You.

2010-04-17T11:23:00.003+08:00

Why am i always the one cornered and attacked?

Why isn't anyone thinking of me?

Why does everyone listen to only one side?

What about me? What about my feelings? What about my problems?

Doesn't anyone wish to listen?

Everyone sides with who they THINK is right.

My fault too as i've never revealed my problems before.

But when i give chances, i take in all insults, i persevere, i keep everything to myself, am i still and forever will be the bad one?

Where is justice? I've been wrongly accused.

I don't know who to turn to, where to turn to.

Life is cruel. Now i know, now i get it.

And now, im looking for a place i can escape to.

Where noone can find me, where noone can insult me, where noone can find me a nuisance.

I just wanna find peace and i wanna be FREE.

2010-04-01T05:29:00.001+08:00

My Babies.

All Grown Up.

SOBS!

2010-03-26T08:12:00.003+08:00

O M G.

Im TWENTY.

Can You Seriously Believe It??

I Wanna Go Back To Thirteen!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-07T03:55:00.004+08:00

Hey People!

I Know, I Know, My Blog's Dead!

No Thanks To My Super Lousy Macbook Adapter!

It Ain't Working So I Can't Update!

And My Bloody Good Employer Now Bans Us From Using The Net For Personal Reasons.

Thanks A Bunch!

So Guys, You Won't Be Hearing From Me For Some Time.

Not That You'll Miss Me Aniway. My Tagboard Is Half Dead Too. LOL!

Oke So, This Is One Of The Rare Moments When I Could Finally Charge This Damn Thing

So Here's A Quick Update.

Hmmmmm, Lets See.

- Sister Turned 14! Bought Her Hair Spray & Perfume. She's So Addicted To All This Hair Care Stuff, Seriously, I Don't Get It. We're Like From 2 Different Planets. HA HA! And She Got Her Long Awaited Guitar From Mom & Dad! Lucky Ass! I Don't Even Get Presents From Them Anymore, Just The Yummy Birthday Cakes! Haha. That'll Do. So, Lets Countdown, Im Hitting The Big TWENTY In 13 Freaking Days! I Wanna Go Back To Thirteen! Arrrghhhhhhh!

RIGHT, Next!

- My Darling Boy & Pretty Girl Is Down With Fever And Cough! Its Been A Week Now And Thanks To Them Mom, Sis & Me Were All Affected! Can't Wait For Them To Recover And Get Back To Their Active, Annoying Selfs! LOL! Especially Babygirl, She Has The Worse Bug And Has Been Missing School. So Heartbreaking To See Her So Down, Tired, Listless, With No Appetite & Sleeping Through The Days. Come On Babies! Time To Recover. We HAVE To Get Out Of The House. Let's Go Soak In The Sun! I Love You Both!

- Awesome Stuff Now. Pay Has Increased! No Doubt, Not Much. But Still! YAY!

- More Good News Now.

Hunnie Has Turned Over A New Leaf. From What I See La. Hehe.

I Can See The Changes. Its Awesome And I Definitely Am Enjoying Every Bit Of It! I Love The Attitude Change Though His Irritating Habits Are Still There. Its Oke, People Don't Change Overnight And Im Happy Enough Now That He's Finally Putting His Family First. I Knew It. I Knew If I Gave Him Time, He'll Eventually Change. I Hope Its Permanent. I Hate It When These Joyful Moments Are Shortlived. Now All I Have To Do Is Cut Off All His Bad Ass Friends. Just So He Wouldn't Be Influenced Again. He Has That Annoying Habit You Know. Some Friends Say He's Under QC ( Queen Control )! The Cheek Of Them!! Its Called R E S P E C T Boys! And Love! Thats How WE, MARRIED Couples Are. Thanks!

- Now Work! Work Has Been Rather Depressing. They Don't Seem To Understand That Even I Can Forget. Yes! Even When I Write It Down In My Diary, Sometimes I DO STILL FORGET! Im Human After All. Sorry, You're Not The Only One With The Heavy Workload Here. I Do Too! What With The New Staff Who's Still Not Getting It, With The Paperwork Here And There, New Orders, Bla Bla Bla! Marine Industry Always So Kiasu! Sometimes I LOVE My Job, Sometimes I Wished I Had Stayed In The Retail Industry! Hmph. Life!

- Also! I Got A Pregnancy Scare!!!! I Was Late For A Week Then I Got Dizzy Spells, Was Nauseous 24/7 & Had No Appetite! Though It Must Have Been The Fever. But Still, Just Imagine My Panic! But Nah, It Came And So, Im Saved. You Guys Should Have Seen The Relief On Hunnie's Face When I Told Him. He Actually Turned White When I Said I Was Late. Haha!

Oke, So Thats It! I Have No Idea When My Next Entry Will Be. I Actually Have Tons Of New Pics But You Know La. Can't Post, Can't Update! So, Please Miss Me And Please Tag! HA HA!

Good Day Everyone! XOXO! T A T A !

2010-02-18T07:51:00.002+08:00

We Fell Asleep By 2300.

He Woke Up At 0600, Kissed My Forehead And Said,

'' Happy Anniversary Sayang''.

How Can I Not Love This Man?

Despite The Shits & Obstacles,

Here's To Us:

HAPPY 5 YEARS & 7 MONTHS OF LOVE!!

2010-02-03T12:45:00.003+08:00

Hello People!

Random Post.

Daughter's down with fever and flu and she has been banned from school. Wished i was banned from work man. Lucky twerp. LOL.

She's getting all chatty now that she has started school, well i mean much more chatty than she was. Haha.

Hubby's working in IBM and our pay sucks but we are happy for what we have.

Insyallah things will look up in months to come.

Work of cos is as sucky as ever.

Eight fucken months there and still no pay rise as promised.

( i was promised a pay rise after 3 months)

So fucken annoying.

Workload has been doubling since god knows when.

Well it can't be helped since my seniors aren't helping much.

After enjoyin only a month of assistance as one of my seniors got back from maternity, the other senior decided that she'll pack and fly to phillipines permanently. And within such a short notice somemore! Walau, knn! So now we're shorthanded again.

And the bloody management aren't even trying to employ staffs! Fuck you, fuck ALL of you!

Emails, Cheques, Quotations, Enquiries, Shipments, Airfreights, Invoicing. Am sick of it all!

Okay, that aside.

Now, my son. What about him?

Well, still not talking much. Still naughty as ever.

And still cute as always. LOL.

Hmmm.

What else.

Oh ya. One of my good friend just got hitched!

Congrats efa!! hope your marriage ain't as sucky as mine. HAHA!

Kidding b, kidding! All the best love.

Oke, i'll be back soon with loads of pictures. Sayang semua! Bye!

2010-01-29T08:10:00.002+08:00

People! I'll Be Back Soon.

Show Me Some Love! (:

2009-12-11T00:05:00.011+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

Its Been Quite Some Time.

Just a Quick Update!

-: Babyboy Adryan Just Turned Two On 6th December 2009.

-: Hunnie's Finally Leaving Army Life. ORD-ing Today Afternoon. Yay!

-: Hunnie Already Got A Job. First Day, This Upcoming Monday. Great News For Us! Alhamdulilah. Thanks To Our Life Saviour, My Best Friend, iiwan gendut! LOL. I Owe You One!

-: Job's Fine Apart From Tons Of Paperwork & Orders. Driving Me Nuts! Boss Has Been Nice Though. Pay Rise Please! Hah!

-: Both Daughter & Son Just Recovered From Fever & Flue.

-: Best Friend's Doing Great Now. So Relieved Knowing Her Ordeal's Over. Love You.

-: Dad's Birthday Is 20 Days From Now. What To Buy???

-: Daughter's Starting School On 5th Jan, Orientation On 4th. OMG!

-: Current Favourite Songs: Meet Me Halfway; Black Eyed Peas

Whatcha Say; Jason Derulo

Replay; Iyaz

Russian Roulette; Rihanna

Baby By Me; 50 Cents ft. Neyo

Never Knew I Needed; Neyo

I Am (Temptation); Mary J Blige

All The Right Moves; One Republic

Okay, Done.

Up Next, Babyboy;s Birthday Celebration.

Venue: Tampines/Home

Daughter Was Sick Hence Her Face(;

See The Birthday Boy Smile! Sooo Cute!

Two Boys Whom I Love Wholeheartedly.

He Was So Engrossed With Little Spidey.

Smile For The Camera Sayang!

Tengok Mana Tuh!

My Boy Is So Full Of Life.

And I Love Him To Death.

Dad, Adryan, Mom.

The Gift From Us.

Kids Looking On While Papa Fix The Train..

Start Of The Day..

Ever So Cheerful..

I Got A Train Set From Mama & Papa Ya'all!

Next. This Is Random.

Camwhoring With Babysis. (:

Hey Hey.

Sisters With Unique Names.

Ria Natasya & Ria Sabrina(:

Cos I Love You In Many Ways Than One Though I've Never Told You So.

Before The Kids, She Was My Baby.

We Are Six Years Apart By The Way.

Next.

Visiting Best Friend.

Venue: Changi Village.

My Cheeky Boy.

My Boy & Godson, Haril.

Im Certain They'll Be The Best Of Friends Later On(:

This Is My New Godson, Anaqi.

So Tiny, So Adorable.

Can't Wait For You To Grow, Little One.

Adryan & Haril. Son & Best Friend's Son.

Hello Haril..

Next!

Family Day At The Pool.

Venue: Tampines Swimming Complex.

My Boy Was Scared So He Accompanied Me At The Benches.

Bored But Too Afraid Of The Water.

Hunnie, Daughter & Irritating Bro In Law. Haha.

Esha & Papa. Esha's Much Closer To Papa.

As For Me, I Have My Boy Who Is Ever So Clingy To His Mama(:

Daddy's Girl (:

So Adorable..

Let's Go Swimming Again!

This Time, I'll Join You Guys!

Okay, That'll Be It!

Please Tag Guys!

Lotsa Love!

Oh! I Forgot Something.

My Best Friend's Getting Married!! I Can't Wait!

(((:

2009-12-07T02:00:00.004+08:00

My Babyboy Just Turned Two Yesterday.

Happy Birthday Babyboy!

This Is For Him, My Beloved Son.

My Dear Son, We grew too fast. I want to celebrate this moment and all the moments from then until now that you have been in my life. You have been a gift to me beyond measure. When I’m uncertain if I’ve made a difference in this world, I look at you and know that I have. You are still the babyboy, the one god gave to me. Know That You Are Loved.

May You Have Many Many Happy Returns, Little One.

I Can't Imagine Life Without You.

My Dearest, Muhd. Adryan Shah.

2009-11-26T00:27:00.015+08:00

Hello Babies!

My Site's Getting Wayy Dusty Now.

Here's An Update Of What I've Been At Recently (:

1st Stop.

6th November 2009.

Location: Mandai Hill Camp

Event: Hunnie's ORD Parade

Went with sis in law, her boy & daughter.

Arrived at 5pm. Stayed on till 9.30pm.

Nice camp, great facilities. So chio. Haha.

Apparently, hunnie was over-excited & panicky that day.

He kept calling and texting while i was on the way.

''B, cepat b! Nanti u sampai takde seat i tak tau eh!''

Walau..so i rush like mad, even took a bloody cab from yishun though i was broke.

And the best part was, when i finally reached, dozens of other peeps were still streamin through the gates. Lagik best tau bila i've been seated for about 20 mins and people WERE STILL STREAMING IN. I could have killed him u know? Waste my money only!

And oh, malaque sat right in front of me. K, that's random.

That aside, here's the pics!!

B, Zaidi Cutie(haha!),Arip,Zul & Mat Noor.

Woohooo!

This part so touching.

You can feel the bond between them, the army boys. LOL.

While waiting for b. He took so long!

Look at her glum face. She didn't wanna have her pics taken that day.

So unlike her. (:

Mentel..

Ayu, Shafie's Babygirl..

Echa & Pape.

The pacifier, i've tried ways and means to get her off it.

But its so so hard..

Would you rather hear her cry the whole night?

I bet you don't. (:

Echa's got ayu for company.

They sure had their fun.

The rare moments when my girl look tall.

Hahs.

Oke, 2nd Stop.

1st November 2009

Location: Singapore Zoological Gardens

Event: Family Outing!

We went quite late but enjoyed ourselves nevetherless.

It was a hot, humid day.

Was expecting a downpour as its raining season but nah, it didn't come so were thankful & delighted.

But i could use some wind though. Haha.

Its been sometime since we last went to the zoo.

It was a great outing. Just nice for some family bonding.

It would have been perfect if my kids put aside their tantrums though.

Haha. One after the other, there was something wrong, something to scream and cry about.

I was going mad but overall, it was NICE (:

Esha enjoyed the rainforest and didn't want to go home whereas yan was too scared to go near the water. So cute eh. Can i gigit u both? LOL.

And oh, to escape from hunnie's non stop nagging, for the 1st time ever, i faced my fears and went into the reptile exhibit. Haha! But i freaked out the moment i saw that damn thing!

The one thing that irks me enough, the reason for my fear of the exhibit, the bloody monitor lizard! Just FIVE minutes or less in the exhibit and i already ran for my life. How pathetic eh? Hahaha! Oke, pictures! Just a few though!

Okay, according to hunnie, these are my friends and i.

thanks eh b. (:

The squirrels are damn cute!!

I stood there watching them for more than 15 mins.

Cute right!!

My Three Babies!

Eeeew!

This snake is HUGE i tell you.

My Love.

Last Stop!

23 November 2009

Location: Home/Tampines

Event: Daughter/Nur Alesha Adriana's Birthday.

Daughter was literally stubborn on her big 3!

She didn't want her pictures taken and was throwing a tantrum.

You'll see the pictures later on.

Well dad bought a cake for her from his workplace.

No other cake's better than Sheraton Tower's coffee cheesecake! HEAVEN! LOL.

And i'll be buying one later on cos i'll be celebrating both birthdays at the same time later next week.

Time flies so fast, in 2 months time she'll start schooling.

And she'll be a teenager in no time. OMG! b nak baby lagik!

Hahaha. To My Princess, Mama Loves You.

Pictures!!

The brother ever so kpo.

See her face? So glum!

Sheraton Tower's Cheesecake!

Couldn't Get Enough!

Cheeky Brother!

Okay, that's about it!

I still have loads to rant about!

Soon ok! In a day or two.

Do tag babies! Love you ALL!

2009-11-23T12:50:00.007+08:00

My Princess Turns Three Today.

Happy Birthday Princess!

You're The Star Of My Life.

Never Have I Regretted Keeping You, Having You.

How Time Flies. Soon, You'll Be Out Of Reach.

Soon, You'll Be Out With Your Friends, Never By My Side.

Soon, You'll Want Your Freedom. Soon, You'll Want Everything Your Way.

I Should Really Start Treasuring The Moments While You're Here With Me, Close To Me.

I Love You, My Precious, Nur Alesha Adriana.

2009-11-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

I was furious when i heard britney's fans in australia walked out on her because of her lip-synching. Come on, if you've really been a fan and have been following her, you should bloody well know that she lip-synchs! Which fan of hers doesn't know that??

She's been at it since forever ya'all.

Give my girl a break wouldn't you?

Aniways, EVERYBODY knows that when you go to a britney concert,

its not about her singing. Its about the whole spectacle.

She performs the same everywhere. Why should australia be any different?

The few people who left certainly aren't her true fans.

I still love you Brit Brit. Haha.

Aren't her boys the cutest ever??

I wish she'd patch up with Justin.

They seems like they are made for each other. Miss seeing them together.

Oh well, this post is random. Im bored bored bored.

Im sooo gonna get Brit's greatest hits once its out.

Going now people. Bye!

2009-11-11T01:19:00.005+08:00

What I need to live has been given to me by the earth.

Why I need to live has been given to me by you.

Come Grow Old Along With Me,

The Best Is Yet To Be.

2009-11-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

Had Great Fun During Hunnie's ORD Parade!

Will Post The Pictures Soon.

I've Yet To Get Them From Soon To Be Bro-In-Law. Haha!

Ziq Takle Angkat! LOL.

So I'll Do A Proper Update Once I Get My Hands On Them.

Lotsa Love!

*Also, i wonder. Why do girls turn away super nice guys and falls for thugs?

And why the hell do nice guys waste their time on girls who take them for granted?

Its seems oh so confusing. But hey, they say love is blind. Life Ain't Easy.

2009-10-31T15:34:00.005+08:00

Hello Babies!
Im currently stuck at work on a saturday just to earn more. Hahs!
Well my senior went into labour last night. And it was suppose to be her last day at work today.
How sad, she had no time to rest at all..
Wishing her all the best and hope the baby's healthy!
And so, all the workload is piling up. And yes, its only the 1st day without her.
How suckier can life get eh?

Okay, that aside. Im actually kinda excited. We're going to the zoo tomorrow!
Haha! Kanchiongkia. Da lamaaaaaa tau tak gi. So paham paham eh.
The last i went was like last year with only hunnie and babygirl.
So this is like the 1st time im goin with my small boy.
Hope he'll be a darlingg. No tantrums oke sayang!
He actually just recovered from high fever.
Throwing tantrums day and night.
And hunnie was sucha darlingg last night. Knowing i had to work the next day, he single handledly pacify and put up with babyboy's cries and tantrums the whole night. He finally doze off at about 5 or 6am. Thanks & i love you!

Also, the day i dread has finally come near.
Hunnie's mc is ending and he's goin back to camp this tuesday.
After a month -plus with him by my side, i have no idea how it'll be.
Lets countdown to 13 December shall we?
ORD Oh!! LOL.

K i gotta run. Tons of stuffs to settle.
Bye all! Mwahhhhh~!!

2009-10-24T16:52:00.004+08:00

Hey People!
Links Already Relinked!
Im Trying Hard To Clear This Dusty Blog Of Mine.
Been A While, Been Busy, Been Happy.
Life's Much Calmer Now.
Hunnie's Been Home Since 18th Of Last Month Due To His Surgery.
Been Bliss Having Him Around.

I Work & He Takes Over My Role.
Look After The Kids.
Feeds Them, Clean Them, Bathe Them.
He May Not Have Done The Best But Still I Appreciate It All.
Cos I Love You Soo.

Been Feeling Constantly Tired.
Workload is piling.
And it will double by end of this week.
Senior's going for maternity leave.
So basically that means, she's leaving me to die.
Hahaha.
Im having great fun at work though..
Just got a pay rise and im happy for that..
Well, you get what you worked hard for they say...
Its been tough handling those new staffs though....
Come on, i've only been there for like 6 months and they've
already thrown that kinda responsibilty to me..
Its ok, pelan pelan laa na..
(:

Im missing my girls.
One who's far away and one who's going into labour soon..
hehe...
I've fallen out with one of my best though.
The feeling's not nice i tell you.
After 5 years of friendship, you've never expect such a thing to happen.
I still love you.

Esha's registration is done.
Finally got a suitable school for her..
Feels like a load hyas finally got off my chest...
The fees are burning a hole in my pockets though...
Take a chill pill, there's more to come...

Been away from home for more than a week..
Have started to miss dad, mom and sis...
See you guys tomorrow..
Love you all...

Below are pictures during our family outing to changi...
Hubby's idea..Tu tiga nyer favourite laa tengok aeroplane...
Tak habis2..Haha..
Its like a family pastime gitu..
Layankan jer laa na....(;

Till next time.
Love you guys.

2009-10-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

I hate being lied to time and time again!

I've tolerate this disgusting habit of yours for YEARS.....

About time to change babe.

Kesabaran aku ada batasnya!

2009-09-28T14:30:00.001+08:00

Pc's Fucked Up But I'll Be Back!

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone!

Smoooches!!!

2009-09-05T15:01:00.004+08:00

I may be a tad too late.

Still, here it is! (:

31st August 2009

This Date Marks Two Years Of Marital Bliss For Us.

I Can't Ever Describe How Proud I Am Of Us.

How We Are Still Standing Strong Despite All That Happened.

He Is, Without Doubt Still My One & Only.

I Love Him More Each Day.

I Know Right, So Cliche.

Still, Its True.

So, Cheers To Us!

3 Years Of Courtship, Two Years Of Marriage And Five Years Of Love.

I Love You, My Dandan. (:

2009-08-30T01:59:00.002+08:00

Camwhoring With My Babies!!

2009-08-08T02:00:00.010+08:00

I'll Be Your Sunshine, You Can Be Mine.

Hey all!

Just a quick update.

Huns was supposed to be back tonight but yeah somethin else came up.

And so he had to stay in camp and im freaking bored!

Its been 2 weeks since i last saw him and i was damn elated when he said he was coming home.

Then this had to happen. Was expecting loads of cuddles you know, im craving for some love. Tough luck for that now. LOL.

Oh wells, guess i'll just have to wait till noon. He'll be back and we'll have a family outing with the kids. Been a while since we had sucha outing. I just love seeing my kids smile once they step out of the house. Well darlings, im as relieved as you are oke. Life has been nothing but work work work, home home home. To and fro. And people still have the cheek to ask why do i look so depressed. Haha. So yeah, we'll have a great family day tomorrow(hopefully).

Hmmmm...Sunday. We're goin to catch the fireworks but we've not chosen the place. Thought of goin east coast just like last year but then i want more thrills. Was thinking marina barrage but i worry about the crowd since im bringin my two babies. Haiyo, leceh hor. Must plan somemore.

And oh, im in a confused state right now. Haizzz. Next year...Im thinking of working full time elsewhere. Retail Again maybe? Just so i can earn much much more and send the kids to a childcare centre. I don't want to burden mom anymore. You see, as an admin/account assistant you really don't earn much. I loved the salary when i was in retail. Walau. Very pening. And then i thought of childcare. I just don't really trust them. I don't want my kids to fall into the wrong hands. I want them to get as much love as i did. I heard childcare, they don't really give a hoot about the kids. Well, they're just doing their job, looking after them that is. But what happens if my kids needs cuddling once in a while? what if they cry? Will they comfort them? Will they do anything to soothe them? Goodness. It really worries me. And if im in retail, i know the working hours are much much longer. So i won't get to see the kids as often as i wish to. So how how how? Damn am i paranoid !!!!

2009-08-06T00:38:00.001+08:00

Baby don't worry, you are my only,

Even if the sky is falling down.

2009-08-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

Life's so tough right now.
Here i am struggling to get a school for babygirl,
to think about next year, living arrangements, job, and so on
and there's some people who keeps asking for more.
They've become sucha bunch of irritants in my life.
Can't they think? Can't they wait??
Its putting pressure on me.
They're adults, and yet....You know laa...
Wish i could just escape from all this mess.
Im so so stressed out.

2009-08-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

Tengok Ah!
What A Bitch Blogger Is.
Bila Aku Ada Mood Nak Update, Nak Upload Gambar, Semua Tak Bleh.
Ass Betol Eh - !

2009-07-31T09:12:00.001+08:00

Someone's Missing Again.
It Just Won't End.
I Won't Say Anything.
Am Sick Of It.

2009-07-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

Just watched the final episode of prison break.

What an ending.

Don't they just love tormenting us?

All was gonna be fine then suddenly Michael dies?

Thanks eh.

Noone's Here Anymore..,Its Just You & Me.

2009-07-23T00:41:00.015+08:00

Sometimes, its just sooo annoying when someone else made a

mistake and you're the one bombarded with texts and calls.

How tough is it for you to just text the person himself?

I've better things to do.

Feels like im the one who's messin all this up.

I have enough troubles already, thank u very much!

As for you, you are not alone.

I've told you we will share joy and pain.

Im keeping my promise, unlike you! Heh.

Well I don't care what they say, Im gonna be with you.

You may feel unwanted & unloved, but i'll always be right here

with you. Supporting you in every way possible.

I know you made mistakes. In fact, loads of them.

Most of cos, to yours truly.

Still i've told you a million times before. Love Is Forgiveness.

And i believe you'll change, one day. Its okay if it takes a decade.

I'll wait...Cos there was only ever YOU.

And though you're hardly the perfect hub, i know im the only one

who occupies that space within your heart.

Te amo..

2009-07-18T10:18:00.003+08:00

Happy 5 Years Anniversary, Baby!!!

When I say, "I love you," it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You're one hell of a man.

On this anniversary, we may not have wealth,
but we do have each other and that is
worth more than anything in the world.

And I Love You, So So Much.
Thank You For Five Incredible Years Of Love, Romance,
Anger, Understanding, Shits, Care, Concern, Pleasure & More!

May We Break Through Till Eternity.

2009-07-08T00:03:00.004+08:00

Hello Babies!
My apologies for not replying to your tags!
Im always reading them though, so don't worry!
Just procrastinating, as always. Nana kan. Ehehehe. Don't marah!

Oke so, im actually killing time cos i wanna watch MJ's memorial on channel 5 at 1.30am.
Smangat eh! Big fan ape. Gosh, im soooo gonna cry again. Haha, Loser!

Oh well i just ended my call with my darlinggggg husband.
Miss him you know. Can't wait for friday. Can hug hug, can fight fight. LOL.
We're always quarelling you know. But it brings us closer. Oh well, macam laa u all tak tau kan...
Abg madhan cannot live without me... Confirm he die punya! :p
Oke laa, i admit, i also cannot live without him okay..Hehehe!

Oh btw, we're planning to overnight at east coast with the kids on saturday.
Ooooh i can't wait!( If its confirmed laa kan. Hehs.)
So fidah, pinjam tent please!!! Aku malas laa nak beli! Bukan slalu pakai ape. Hehe.

K now, something about my precious kiddos.
My dearest muhammad adryan shah has turned 19 months yesterday! That makes him a year and seven months old. Oh god, he's growing so fast! Exactly one year from today, i'll be preparing him for nursery. O M G ! Nak nangis!! B, nak baby lagik! Haha! :)
And my beloved nur alesha adriana is of cos a big big girl now. Im registering her tomorrow for nursery 1. O M G kan?! She's 2 years and 8 months old now. Awwww..my first born. She'll always have a special place in my heart cos she's my very first baby.
Gosh, im feeling so overwhelmed now. I love my kids to death..And i thank allah for giving two so very beautiful angels...

Okay, let's not get too emotional here. Hehs.
So here's some pics we've taken over the weeks.
I'll let them do the talking.
I love you guys! Hugs & Kisses!

Ps: Captions Are Above Pictures.

My No. 1 Favourite Pic. See b?

I told u i love it when u smile.

so cute kan...

Accompanied darlink shasha to interview at boat quay.

i love you bebeh.
Camwhoring at the void deck before he books in.
love love sama you...

B......Senyum!!!!

I think i said that more than 50 times.

Well, MAYBE. Haha.

Me with echa & there's iyan...

Cute not my kids..? Hehehehe..

Oke, this part paham paham k..Ehehe..

G E M O K !

Von Dutch Seh! Ahahahaa.

See i told you kan he loves me.

Dia tido mesti nak selit kat tiak orang..

If that isn't love, tell me what love is...

Ceh ceh ceh..hehehehe..

sweet kan? hahaha!

we step loving loving laa babe...

and again....

2009-07-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

Im at work now and im bored!
My boss needs a fucken punch on his face!

2009-07-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

Just great!
I can't upload photos!
Bloody Blogger.

Oh Hello Babies!
How have you guys been? Hopefully, all is fine.
Im here for a quick update. Hehs.
Well first of all, i wonder whether any of you here is affected by michael
jackson's death as much as i am. I find it weird. I feel so affected.
Hunnie has been nagging non stop about this. Still, i can't help it!
I've been on the verge of tears everytime i see his tributes on tv. Somebody help!

We all miss you michael. You're gone too soon.
I was sooo looking forward to his upcoming tour. And this had to happen.
Yeah i may not be there to watch in person but atleast, you know, tv and stuff.
May you rest in peace. We all love you.

Oke so, transformers was awesome! Worth waiting for a year plus!
Tapi nak dapat seat punya la seksa! So much trouble! Finally we just settled for the first row. And that was the second last show of the day. Nabei! My neck!!
We watched the 10.15pm show which lasted till 12.45am...
We were at the cineplex at 5.45pm mind you. There were still so many sessions before 10.15. Tapi all fully booked! Nabei button! Actually i yang degil, on 24th june itself, i've already check the net. I saw most were booked but i tak percaya laa. Takkan laa all cineplexes fully book kan?
Skali pergi, betol seh. Babi eh! Kan? Geram aku! Haha. Maybe we'll catch it again this weekend!
Eh b, boleh eh b? I nak tengok kat atas laa. Lagik best! Hehehehehehe.
And oh, did any of you cried when optimus prime died? I DID!!! Hahahaha. Kental eh! Kental eh!
Aniways, five stars to the director, producer or whoever la. Job well done!!

And its july already! Walau so fast hor!
In 16 days, we're gonna celebrate our 5th Year Anniversary!!
And in exactly 60 days, we're gonna celebrate our 2nd Year Wedding Anniversary!
Can you believe it? Its a dream come true!
I love you, Muhammad Ramadhan!

Oke when blogger's not being a bitch, i'll upload pictures yeah.
I Love You All!!!!!!

2009-06-26T20:52:00.003+08:00

Many of you must already know, the great Michael Jackson has passed on.

The first thing i did at 7am this morning was to switch on to channel newsasia.

It was far from what i expect to see so early in the morning..

Still am in complete and utter shock....Am one of his big fans, grew up listening to his great music and grooving while watching him dance so passionately, well who can forget his awesome moonwalk dance??!He had such a passion for music, for dancing. Noone else can ever take his place. My condolences to his family. Michael, may god bless your soul and may you rest in peace. Long live Miachael Jackson!

Farah Fawcett has lost the 2 year battle against cancer too.

I may not know much about her, but yeah, one of the legendary charlie's angels.

May you rest in peace, Farah.

2009-06-22T23:56:00.003+08:00

I would like to wish two very important men in my life,

Happy Belated Father's Day!

To my dearest husband,

thanks for the never ending love for me and kids.

I know you're not the world's greatest father.

Still i hope, one day, you'll be able to bond

with them wholeheartedly.

Its never too hard. And i'll be here to guide you, to be with you.

You'll be amazed at the small little things you're able

to convince them to do while i could not.

There is, my dear. About time you realise.

I know its complicated as you hardly see them and you're unsure.

Still i know, deep inside you, there's unconditional love for them.

I love you & happy 3rd father's day.

So i say again, thank you so much for giving me 2 beautiful kids...

_____________________________________________________________________

To my wonderful old man,

you have loved me, and you still do.

Despite all i did, there stood you.

Thank you for your years of love and sacrifice...

Underneath my actions there is love,

gratitude, respect, and admiration.

I know I haven't been the child I should...

I'm sorry, sorry for the things I do,

But please believe I cherish Mom and you.

Happy Father's Day Ayah...

2009-06-18T20:08:00.003+08:00

Some Adorable Pictures Of My Kids.

Ahaha. They Love The Macbook.

And I Love Them. Hahas.

Im Currently Busy/Lazy Half The Time.

My Apologies For The Lack Of Updates Folks.

Blog Is Bloody Dead. Hahs.

Still, Do Tag Pls! ILY All!

2009-06-12T00:21:00.003+08:00

Miss you so much!

Your daughter ask for you all the time!
That's the hardest part!

2009-06-09T23:58:00.007+08:00

Just A Message To Two Of My Best Girls.

My Best Friend Of 4 Years, Natassa Aka Tasha/Icaa.

I Miss You So Bloody Much.

It Kills Me Not Being Able To Contact U.

You're The One I Would Turn To When I Have Troubles.

Anything On Kids, Friends & Love...

You Were There For Me....

People See You As One Tough Rebellious Girl..

Im One Of The Lucky Ones Who Really Knows The Real U.

Even When You Rebelled, I Know The Reason.

I Know U Won't Stay That Way Long.

I Was Angry, But I Know. You're Still HER....

The Smart, Gorgeous Girl With The Fragile Heart.

I Remember You Telling Me,

''Don't Worry Na...Tasha Will Come Back..''

And I Still Blame Her For Doing This To You.

You Know Who Im Referring To Don't You?

I'll Never Forgive Her.

I'll Find A Way To Get In Touch With You.

Its Driving Me Crazy Bottling Up All These Secrets.

Which Of Cos, Are Only Meant For YOU To Hear.

You Take Care Of Yourself.

I Love You SO Much!

My Dearest Stephanie Aka TitiButterfly.

Im Sorry For Not Realising.

Sorry Too For Not Bothering To Ask.

Sorry For Letting You Go Through All That Alone.

Just Sorry, For Not Being There....

No Matter How Far Apart We Are,

I Always Do Think Of You.

I Love You Very Much.

Hope You're Well Now.

We Shall Meet Soon.

Take Care(:

xoxo

2009-06-07T02:12:00.003+08:00

26th June 2009.

I Can't Wait !!!!!!!

2009-06-07T01:33:00.002+08:00

Darkness in the Night, I'll Find That Light For You,
As Long As I Have Eyes, I'll Have a Sight For You,
As Long As Im Alive, Baby I'd Die For You

-'For you, there's no replacement.
You will always be my boy.

Love you sweetheart.

2009-06-06T00:08:00.003+08:00

Tag Replies

kyn: hi nana, wat i know is monthly kene bayar $75.. register tak sure..
- Really? Murah eh.. Oke. I nk tau registration fee nyer...Hehe..Thanks aniway babe!

fifye: sayangg ! u dh tk link i lagikk ehh.. remember me ? huruhr ! anw its $20 for PAP.
- Nanti i link k! Oke thank you!

Gucci B: Nana! I Added You In Msg Already But U Never Online..
- Elly! I slalu online malam. Beh i online u tak
online. Ape la!!!

ayusachek: baby, noty eh, kate nak link, tak link pon. so bad. (
- Da link sayang!

passerby: beb you lost weight ke? the recent photo dated 28th may 09. cute cute~
- Lose weight?? No idea plak.. If i did, good la! Ehehehe.

bloghopper: hello do u mind telling me the songs name on your playlist... totally totally in love with it =))
- Hello. The songs are keep u much longer by akon, i love my people by eddy wata, stranger by chenelle, where u are by jessica simpson & nick lachey, taking back my love by enrique & ciara, change me by akon & keri hilson, insomnia by craig david & hero by taj(:

EeQaH: hope the best for you. =)
- Thanks so much babe(:

dewi: dear..hows life?? its been awhile since i met u..
- Hey kak..Oke laa..How bout u? Oke?

moktelyamja: glad u and husband r doin fine now. always
rmbr, its not the two of u bt four now. May god protect u always sweetie. and
bile eh kita nk bump into each other lagik? haha
- Yes, alhamdulilah we're fine...Thanks so much..Terharu kita..Heh..Insyallah nanti bump agik k..Hope u're doin great too sayang..

RoxyNakalz: hello there beb.im jz passing by thru ur blog:)
cool cool song!
- Hello. Thank Q!

-=-indah-=-: nana rmbr me?
- Remember darling! How U? (:

EllyKetot: hiii babe. i was heree! (: do update more often okay!
- Hello! Thanks for droppin by! Sure(:

JuLii: btw gf, dont stress urself okay. i bet he's working he's ass off to provide a bright future for you and ur kids. be supportive ok syg? love u...
- Mcm ane nak supportive julii..If he's really working for us, surely he's also missing us. How come he doesn't contact us at all? You know, a call a day ain't really much to ask for right..Thanks aniway..Love you too(:

Ayu LuLu: i just know u but im married..ive been thru this and yes its ver hard..but all i do is to think about my kid.. hang in there aite..
- Heys..Yeah...All this while, all i think of was my kids..Haizzz.....

fisah: im fine thank you babe! hehe. bile nak jumpe nieeee
- Glad to hear babe! Ah2 la bila jer nak jumpa! I pon tak tau..Ahaha!

EL: Exactly ! He should be hanged. Or let the dogs bite off his balls ! Ohoh, Adryan looked so the matsalleh sia !
- Haha, Tau takpe! Mampos bagus! Matsalleh eh? Macam jerr. Hehehe.

Iva: Babe,Hang On There Ya..All Relationships Pon Gini..Btol Ika Ckp,Annoying Specimens.Tpi Dorang Jugak Kita Syg Kn?I Know You Can Make It.. (:
- Annoying specimens eh? Betol! But yeah, its them we love. Thank q!

EL: Hey syg. Don't just give up yet. There are ups and downs kan ? Be strong for yourself, be strong for the kids.
- Hello babe..Thanks dear for the advice...Terharu i..Hehe(:

ika_bella: aku pon gadoh ngah gadoh about d same ting.. annoying specimen.... hahahha
- Hahaha..Irritating bodo ni jantan seme...Haiyo..Eh, aku rindu kau ah!

chez: haha..the one in white is hadi..and the other one is haziq..kind amiss them too. btw..i was her babe!! mmuuahhxx!!
- Hahas. Cute kan dorang...Drop by often! xoxo!

Lyzzie: Na, your readers and i know how strong you are cos
we have seen you gone through the worst. so hang in there, love. all will be
well soon. (:
- Awww, Don't make me cry laa lyz! Haha. Thanks darlinggg...

JuLii: just hold on tight ok. when u feel the end is near. remind urself of all things good. kenangkan zaman2 bercinta cintun dulu.. dont harp on the fights. tau!!
- Thanks julii...Wise of you...Will keep that in mind...Sayang banyak!

Nana Sugarpie: beb. chill kays. there's always up and down.
tabahkan diri okey. maybe at times we just need a break lar!! smile
dearie
- Break pon agak2 laa. Must use initiative. Kita family...Mane leh ader communication breakdown..Lau apapa jadi how? Hahas..Thanks aniway sayang!

EL: Hey syg, tkmo worry laa. And be strong. Married life penuh with obstacles. But eventually, everything will be fine.
- Hello darlingg. Married life penoh obstacles?? Tak paya cakap oi! Tak terkira nih..Hehe..Still you're right..Eventually,everything's fine now. Hehs.. Thanks
dear.

Fiie: Patient kae dear..U noe la guys..Typical..Kter je kne b patient.Hope u guys will be fine..Tke kaire yea..
- Heys. Yeah, typical of them. Irritants at times..Hahs..Thank U (:

Licia: Nana, Sabar alrights. God will be looking upon all of you. Remain calm and strong babe. Hope things will get better for u as time passes. Anak nana cute ah! ;D Take care:]
- Hello. Thanks so much yeah..Insyaallah things will be fine in the future..For now we're trying to make it better..Take care babe(:

RoxyBabe: Sabar babe.. Guys always expect us to understand
them, but they nvr understand us. We gals always have this thinking, how's my guy, da mkn ke blum, is he ok.. But they don't bother.. Sabar je..
- Thank q babe. Yes, they ALWAYS expect us to understand them when they themselves dun even try or make an effort to make it better. Sumpah tak akan paham. Ahaha....Thanks aniway! (:

2009-06-05T23:44:00.004+08:00

Hello Babies.

Here's Some Wayyyyy Overdue Pichas.

Happy Viewing!

Nana & TitiButterfly;

My Babygirl.

I Miss You....So Much.

2009-06-05T00:39:00.004+08:00

HELP !!!!

Hello Babies!
I've Got No Time To Update Actually.
Just Gotta Ask...
Anyone Knows How Much The Registration Fee For PAP Nursery Is?
Agak Agak Pon Boleh Laa. Below 20? Below 50? Below 100??
Im Gonna Register Esha Next Week. I've To Make Some Money Arrangements.
So Yeah, Tolong, Tolong !!!

2009-05-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

2009-05-28T01:23:00.007+08:00

Hello Babies.
Gosh, This Is So Random.
Im Bored Bored Bored.
Being Away From Him For So Long. Hmph.
What To Do Horr.
Tomorrow Till Sunday I Won't Be Around.
So Im Bloggin While I Still Can. Although Actually, There's Not Much.
Ahaha.

Well, Can't Wait For Saturday.
Fidah & Sky Got Four Free Tickets To Escape Theme Park.
They've Got Family Day.
And Of Course, Yours Truly & Him Was The Chosen One.
So Sweet Of My Girlfriend Right. Banyak2 Kawan Aku Jugak Kau Ajak.
Aku Tau Kau Sayang Aku. Aku Pon Sayang Kau. Kekekeke.
Yey Yey Dapat Ticket Free. Excited Semacam Gitu!
Yela Da 1 Year Plus Tak Gi Escape. Maklum La Kan. Jakun Skets.
Jangan Mara Yer! Ahahaha.Tapi Satu Jer Boring. Dorang Tiga Ni,
Ader Penakot Sket. Kira Nanti, Yang Thrilling2 Seme Aku Kene Naik Sorang.
Kesian Aku Kene Pekik Sorang2. No Friend. Apa Ah Korang. Weak Ah. Ahaha.
But What A Pity, I Can't Bring My Kids.Ticket Tak Cukop. Next Time K Sayangs.
Lagipon Da Lama Mama Tak Keluar Have Fun,Kasi Muka K. Kesian Kan Mama Sket. Ehehehehe. Nanti Mama Da Gaji Kita Gi Zoo Ke Underwater World K. Janji! Heee(:

Plus, As All Of You Know, We've Been Having A Rough Patch These Last Few Weeks. Alhamdulilah, Everything's Settled Now. We've Talked It Through As I Couldn't Take It Anymore. It Became So Bad Till Talk & Thoughts Of Separation Occur. I Thought Hard. We Can't Lose This. We'll Fight, Fight For Our Love. Fight For What It Once Was. We've Been Too Strong For Too Long. We Can't Lose US. So Yeah, We Discussed, We Embraced, We Cried, We Hugged, We Kissed & We Realised. All We Need Is One Another, Be Strong For Each Other. Now, We're Starting Anew. He's My Pillar Of Strength. I Can't Lose It, Can't Lose Him. Insyaallah, All Will Be Fine. Pray For Us Will You? (:

So Now, Im Contented. I Love My New Job,
I Have My Kids, Parents Who'll Do Anything For Me; Gosh I Love Them.
I Have My Husband, Who Still Loves Me As I Am & I Have Great Friends.
Though Not Much, But Who I Have Now Have Been The Very Best.
Thank You Guys. I Love You All, The Light Of My Life.

Do Tag Folks.
I'll Get Back To You ASAP.
Goodnight(:

2009-05-25T22:46:00.009+08:00

Some Pics Of My Two Beautiful Kids.

My Adryan & Alesha...

Time Flies So Fast.

Rewind Balek Time Baby Bole?

Well, Minus The Tantrums Of Cos. Hahs.

Enjoy(:

Nur Alesha Adriana...
Known As Esha(: Baby Moments.

Muhd. Adryan Shah..
Known As Iyannn(:

Esha, Toddler Years(:
iyann, baby moments(: Times Together...Through The Years(:

Esha Again...

iyann, toddler years(:

Oh Btw, Did U Guys Read About The Poor Little Boy

Who Passed Away After His Stepdad Beat Him To Death?

Torture, Bite Him & All?

The Stepdad Only Got 7 Years In Jail & 4 Strokes.

I Was Like, WHAT?!!!

Where is justice??!

The Poor Little Boy..

He should be hanged! Bloody Imbecile!

2009-05-22T08:32:00.003+08:00

Seeing Our Situation Now..

Some Part Of A Lyric, Just For You..

These days you barely even say my name,

Like you don't really feel the same,

I'm wondering what's to blame,

These nights I fall asleep wondering where you are,

It feels like we're falling apart,

And it's only breaking my heart,

Cause if being with you means being alone,

And never knowing when you're coming home,

Then I guess I'm better off on my own

But I can't move on,

Cause that makes forgetting,

forgetting everything we've had, Instead I keep coming,

keep coming, I keep running back

Cause I keep forgetting,

forgetting you treat me so bad

So I keep coming, keep coming, I keep running back

My friends say that I should leave you behind,

And stop wasting all my time,

They tell me that I am out of my mind

But I know that what we both share is real,

And I've been willing to deal,

With the way that you're making me feel

Cause if being with you means being alone,

And never knowing when you're coming home,

Then I guess I'm better off on my own

But I can't move on,

Cause that means forgetting,

forgetting everything we've had,

I keep coming, keep coming, keep coming back,

I keep running back, I keep running back to you

2009-05-18T23:38:00.011+08:00

Four Years, Ten Months.

Cos You're The One Who Could Make Me Tingle All Over.

Happy 58th Baby! ILY.

2009-05-18T22:49:00.004+08:00

Them.

Original Bedok Boys.

IMYG!

I Was Just Looking Through Photobucket.

Had A Glance At My Old Pics.

And I Found Myself Reminiscing...

Suddenly, I Thought About The Great Friends I And Hunnie Had.

Some Of Them..Were Of Cos The Bedok Boys.

The Boys Whom I Once Called My Close Pals.

Those Pregnant Days With Them. LOL.

The Days When Most Of Them Were All Clean Of Ink.

The Ones I Miss Most Would Be The Twins.

Haadi & Haziq.

Haadi Was Hunnie's Classmate All Along.

They Were The Best Of Friends.

They Still Do Meet & Sometimes We'll Pay Their Parents A Visit Too..

And Haziq, Well Thanks To Him, Hunnie Got His Very First Ink Without My Knowledge.

Ada Si Dua Bodo Ni Nak Bodo Bodo Kan Aku. Sorry Eh, I Saw Through It.

Somemore With Haziq's Cheeky Smile. I Should Have Known. Haha.

I Remembered How Haziq Would Everytime Kpo When We Quarelled.

And How He Would Call Me At Night To Harass Me.

And Of Course, Who Could Forget His Playboy Ways.....

Most Of His Gfs Were All My Close Friends...

Tsk Tsk Tsk..

So Yeah, We Will Always Hang Out With Them At Bedok.

I Was Very Well Known As Sab Tweety. Nice Name Eh Shamir. Hahaha.

Thanks To My Cute Voice On The Phone.

What Lovely Memories....

I Miss You Guys..

Just YOU Bedok Guys..

As You All WERE...

Nice & Innocent...Without All These Other Influences

That You Guys Have Got Yourselves Into Now..

Still, No Matter What, I Wish You Guys The Best..

To Haziq, Insyaallah Takde Pape Yer..

We Were Once Close....

It Hurts Me Too...

We're All Waiting For The Outcome..

Hopefully You'll Repent Once Its Over..

Symphatise With Your Mom, Ziq..

Among All Of Us, She Hurts The Most..

And She Loves You Alot....Sure You Know That..

All The Best Bro......

haziq & haadi.

trust me, you can totally differentiate them.

nothing's similar! ;)

2009-05-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

Putri: Babe! I feel you.. I used to argue with my ex-bf becos of tis type of things.. like he cant be bothered and all that. HUGS!
- hahs..yeah. sickening shit
kan. pikir apa..senang eh.. nak, datang. taknak, belah. babi! LOL. Tag often
eh!

ayusachek: babe, link me up ok? im new here.
- hello sayang!!! camne nak
link? link takde! ehehehe. miss ya!

faiizura: beb , your anak very cute . macam mak die eh . ahahah ! =p
- hahaha! puji puji eh. kekeke.
thank babe!

zana: nana babe, how youve been? was just blog hoopin and
ended up at urs. i hope youre doing fine sweets. your kids getting cutter lah
ok. hahaha. you take care!
- hello zan! been great. hows
you? im fine, no worries! ahaha. kids of cos getting cuter. tengok sket mak
nyer! hahahaha! take care too! see u aroun!

JuLii:
chill lah awak oiiii.
- takle chill nih. marah oiiii.
hahaha.

babyPHAT: nana. update soon! (: upload your babies' pictures too. i miss looking at their pictures. (: dropping by again soon. (:
- hehe. da update nih. nanti
insyallah i update gambar dorang k! (:

someone: hey nana what happened between you and paula?
- what do u mean what
happened? nothing happened!! (:

wawa:
just a passerby . adorable kids . stay happy family ya .
- heys! drop by often! thanks
babe!

Putri: Alamak! blog song so touching! Care to share the title of this song, babe?
- hahas! where you are by
jessica simpson & nick lachey. enjoy!

passerby: hi am just a passerby. your kids are so cute. hope u and your husband last long. bye.
- thanks so much(:

elly.erika: i was here bebe. what a blessed family u have. mine in 4 yrs time. insyallah. hehe
- hello babe. how are u? lama tak nampak..hehe..4 years time eh? countdown eh. lol. take care!

yanabayb: wahhh both anak dah besar sehh.. hehh. cute2
- hahas. yeah da besar laa..lol..ur kids pon comel la babe!

ayeesha:
OK sorry salah tagbaord. was bloghopping here hahahahahahah. salah tagboard. hee.
- haha. cute eh u! thanks for droppin by!

Cahaya:
happy burpday i love you too! huahuas. alamak. marah nnt hottstuff. hohos!
memain ehh gurll =)) eh ur baby takde cute lagi ker? jeles seyhh. hahas! pinjam
sehari kenn? baby gurl kamuhh? hehehe.
- aahaha..ape jer eh! lol. nak
cute camne lagik babe..hahas! tak ble la. she's very attached to me
tau..hehehe!

Qhasrina.: anw im just bloghoppin.. Im inspired by ur blog. God bless.
Qhasrina.: omg. Ure so lucky, seriously. Hving ur hubby by
ur side. Unlike me. Hvin babygirl with the dad gone MIA. Thnks to my parents 4
helpin. I do envy u. I want my child to hv a dad. But, haiz.
Luckyou.
- Hello There. Well, guess im fortunate..alhamdulillah..Don't think too much of it babe..A kid with a great mom is enough. Sometimes their daddys aren't of much help either. They can even be sucha hindrance. May god bless u & may u enjoy life with your daughter..Im sure she's beautiful.. take care.. (:

synester: hey nana.bless u and ur family for goin throu all these yrs.been an avid fan of urs fo past yrs.dah besar nana..cheers to ur family stay strong always!!!:)
- hey there. thanks so much. so nice of u. do tag often yeaa..

fisah: hello hot momma! :p mwaaah! take care
- hello sayang! take care too! haha. cute la u. mwahh!

Lyzzie: tell your hubby, kaki tu baik baik eh. heh heh. makan porridge, madan!hahaha.
- lol! dah baik dah ni! lol! tak baik kau! haha!

Nana Sugarpie: kau peh tempat pun ader hate tags. aku peh
pun ader. menyemak tulz ehhh!!!!
- ala kau tau laa low life freaks ni seme. mrepek! buat semak jer. hahaha!

Nas: hey babe,how are u doing? lama tak nampak, alhamdulilah kau dah berkawin dan dah ade 2 lovely children. bila kawin? link me k, tk care!
- hello nas! long time didn't see u!! 2007 da kawin oi..will link u! take care!!

fezah: hello. i swing by and i gt to tell u this. ur 2 kids are adorable. hehehe. take care gf! *hugs*
- hahas. sweet of u! thanks babe! take care!

passerby: ur daughter is adorable. her smile and her hair. very cute. =)
- (: yes, im blessed to have her. thank q. take care.

ACAH: Babeee, i always loved your songs la. semue best best you knowww. i sukerrr. - hehe. best eh. we have same taste in music kot..hahas.

FUZY:
HEYYY!!!!!!! I was here!! You look so good,mummy!! hehehe. Long time no come
here. heelloo!!
- hello babe! hahaha! so good kape..boleh laa..hehe..ya lor u long time never drop by..drop by often aites..tc!

chezrocksteady: hey babe.link me aite n email ur email add to my mail.love**
- i'll email u k babe..and i'll link u..thanks!

Elle Sweetheart: nana lagu nice (: i'll invite u to my blog kay .
- thanks syg..invite tau..email i nana.cyber@hotmail.com.. (:

Elly Pasir Ris: Kasi Me Ure Msn Dulu Then From There Kite Xchange La Ok?
- My msn absolute_nana18@hotmail.com ... u add i then kita exchange link k...
asap tau! mwahhh!

Sugarbaby Eqin Sweetheart: ehhhh.. miss la ida(mamalicious)! krm slm de k..!!!
- hahas. yeah sure insyaallah...

JuLii: Awak... Busy ker?
- sory babe! was busy! lol.

JAZA: anak u due2 punyelaaaa CUTE!! hahaha!! stay happy
darling! BTW! i saw u pt PS GV tau! tapi nk tegur i takot lak u tk kenal..
hahaks!
- hahaha! thanks!! insyaallah i happy2 slalu yer..u nampak i? beh tak tegur! RABAKK! lol! Next time kene tegur tau!

passerby .: heyys ! passed by . Nyce blog . And pretty ladyee , you
are , indeed . Have faith in everything ay , and harap2 your baby(s) get well
soon ! Be strong ay . TC !
- hellos! thanks, whoever u are! sweet of u(: drop by often yeah. tc!

Putri: I love your blog song... whats the title eh? LOLs... and and beautiful kids...
sighs.. HAHA..
- Heys! Taking back my love by enrique and ciara. heees. thanks babe!

ayun: mampoz... wahhh evribodi into iyan and echa eh... hahah. u just keep posting on them lah tau2 popular je si kecik. lol.
- hahas! of cos laa they're so
into them..see the parents...LOL. aniways, da memang popular
dah..

EL: haha. the convo so cute ! like dont know like that ahh. bsk shopping. haha.
- lol. cute eh?! nih la kita dua step cute slalu..lol..shopping oi shopping! hahas!

shimaaaaa: hey hey, im just a randon bloghopper! find ur
kids so cute la.. haha... geram aje.. ur girl! mad god! geram.. can gigit tak?
sweet family.. wen i c u guys.. i feel happi..
- hello there! Thanks for
droppin by! most kids are cute babe..not only mine..hehe..nga step humble
nih..lol! Thanks aniway! But sorry, no gigit eh! Ahaha. Wen u c us u feel happy?
Glad to hear that..Touching. Hehe. Tag slalu yer..Take
care!

2009-05-16T01:32:00.006+08:00

You've Proved Your Point, Okay I get it, And Yes I'll Try,
Try To Forget It.You Cut Me So Deep.
Never Thought You Wouldn't Want Me There.
You've Become A Stranger.

I can see, and im sure you can too. We're drifting apart. Wayy far apart.

Love & passion has lessen. I don't know what i should do. And im sure neither do you.

Suddenly after that evening row we had, i began to see things differently.

I no longer sit and laze around, anxiously waiting for your calls & your text anymore.

I've learned in the last few days, that when you really don't expect or think too much about something, it doesn't hurt. So now im over it. I don't feel mad when i see nothing on the screen. Im much happier, i can focus on my job. I figured it out. Why waste my time? Since you don't find me important enough to tell me anything, why should i chase after you? Why should i be the one wondering where you are, are you okay, whether anything happened? Easy said, im sick of it. Fed up. I don't want to always be the first to text, to call, to ask, to expect an answer. You, as a husband should be responsible. Use your bloody initiative to inform us.

Now when i don't text or call, you start sending all these messages. I know. Yes, im very soft hearted. And im sure you assumed i'll be forgiving as usual. As always. So there. You're taking me for granted again.

Although this time, im not gonna be taken for a fool. You messed this up, you do the cleaning. You're cunning. Im sure you'll think of many ways to solve this shit.

Aniways, all i asked for is, AN UPDATE. Now & then.

I don't want you to tell me that you're at cgh for appointment. Then suddenly at camp, then no texts no calls. And then out of sudden, the next evening you text saying you're at jurong island. WTF la ramadhan!

ps: pc just recovered. i'll reply to your tags asap. love you all! (:

2009-05-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

Life Is Fucken Absurd.
Stop Telling Me What To Do.
Stop Expecting Too Much Of Me!
This Was Not What I Was Expecting...
Some People Are Just So Bloody Heartless.
Stop Acting So Nice When All You Actually Want Is Something In Return.
Aniways People, Since When Did Getting Married Means

Its A Definite Nono For Us To Go Out??
What About Those Married Folks With Kids Who Still Have Time To Spend Time ALONE With Their Spouses???
I Can't Believe This Has Become Sucha Major Issue. Its Fucken Absurd!

And Oh, If Only Laa Eh, I Earn 3000 And Up Per Month!
Baru Puas Hati Kau Kan!

I Just Despise Parents Who Mengira With Their Very Own Kids!!!

Or Rather, With Their Grandchildren!
Thank God Mine Aren't Like That.
No Offence!

Eh Aku Geram Ahh!

2009-04-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Baby!

I Love You, Now & Forever.

All The Best.

Fulfill Your Dreams.

I Will Forever Be By Your Side, To Support You,

To Give You Strength.

And I'll Give You,

All The Love In The World.

: ayang da tua!

2009-04-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

Lovelies!

Nanti Nana Update Okes. Sorry Laa Pc Uat Hal Laaa. Hehe.

Thanks For Tagging. Yang Perlu Di-Relink, Nanti Nana Relink Olrite. Love You All!

Mwahhh.

2009-04-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

RANDOM.

ayang : b i macam suker dengar suara u nari. macam lain gitu. so cute!!!
nana : i tau i cute.
ayang : macam i kan i tau...
nana : ah2 laa....tapi i lagik cute.. hehehehe

cute kan? hahaha! one of our mrepek-nak-mampos-lovey-dovey-nonsense.

i love him freakingg much! Laa, as if u all don't know like that horr. LOLS!

yeahs, besok jumpa! besok jumpa! ader orang da gaji, errrmmm, like u don't know pulakk..ahahaha..

oke la, updating with macbook is seriously so leceh. pc uat hal plak. so u all have to wait horr. keep taggin oke. takmo layan laaa hate taggers ni seme. malas i nak layan..oke, i tau ni random but im bored laa. ehehehe. bye korang. sayang banyak!

2009-04-08T00:35:00.007+08:00

Hello folks.

Im totally shagged. My kids are sick! High fever. Yan's got it first, on sunday afternoon. While esha just got infected on monday. So, high fever, that equals to more nonsense, more crying, less sleep, more tantrums & less time for myself. I took urgent leave today. I suppose my supervisor's fed up. No, really i don't care. Family always comes first for me. Especially my kids.

So i brought yan to the clinic. Yes, only yan as they can share the medications surely. Oke so, yan's teething again! Well, i've already guessed. With the saliva drooping 24/7, duh! I guess this one really hurts, he went through his other teething phases quite well. No fever, no crying, NOTHING. And esha, she was merely infected from her brother. Jangkit Jangkit! Well, get well soon babies! Cos papa's coming home soon and we're planning to go out & enjoy! Friday's a public holiday and maybe, just maybe, papa will be home early. So be strong now, fight it out! I love you two!

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Jobhunting With Nana & Aida.

Here's Some Pictures(:

and oh, to paulaelizabeth :

whoever you are, maybe before you start shooting out comments, you could at least tell me who you really are? rather than using one of my blogmate's name? it can't be pure coincidence that you guys have the same name right? anyways, thanks alot for the comment though its unnecessary. prolly cos i don't need you to tell me what's right & what's wrong. i very well know how to handle my kids and of cos, how to bring them up. i dun need u for a teacher. tattoos don't define how good or bad a parent that person is. good examples are not all about tattoos my dear. there's alot of other stuffs on upbringing which we may be great at. which of course, you wouldn't know, unless ur that close to us. so senang cakap la, MYOB suda. goodbye.

2009-04-06T01:36:00.006+08:00

1st April, Family Day At ECP. Had TONS Of Fun! (:

Boy Boy Malu! Ahaha.
My 3 Sayangs.

Siblings.

yeah, they're watching their dad swimming..

echa & shades laa..

hahaha..comel kan echa..

goodness nana, so masai.

my angels..

boy boy takot air!

my girl...

awww..melts my heart..

papa teaching echa..

Oke Im Shagged! Will Update Later On, Hope This Will Do For Now! Ahaha. Sayang Korang! Byebye!

2009-04-06T01:13:00.004+08:00

TAG REPLIES.

(human)
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
- Errrr, HELLO? Is That Suppose To Be A Hate Tag? Cos If It Is, Maybe U Could Try Harder?? Hah, What A Bore La All This Haters. Sad Life.
-
(kimiekeai) syg , gimme
ur email laa hunney . i ll invite eu . miss you tao ! mwuah !
- nana.cyber@hotmail.com . I Da Kasi Kat Friendster U Sey. Ahaha. I Miss U Too! Mwahhhh!

(Nana Sugarpie) wah.. hubby dah alik terus tak
update.. hmmmz.. hahaha!
- Dear, I Was At My In Laws Laa. Sorry Laa. Kat Uma Orang Takkan Nak Saje Saje Je Kai PC Orang. LOL. Ni Da Update Ni! Takmo Mara! Ahaha.

(yati) hey dear i miss u! i was the one who
sms-ed u on ur birthday=) anyways ur kids grew up so fast...
- Hey Sayang. Missed U Too! Hahas. Yea I Know. Sorry I Tuka Fone Nombor Seme Ilang Laa Baby. Fast Kan. Boring Ah. Nak Baby Baru Ah! Hahahaha! Siak Jer.

(Lynn) Sorry Lah Baby!
You Werent The Only One I Didnt Tag. Haha! I Very Busy Lorrr. Relink Okay.
Sayang You! (:
- Haha! Oke La Sayang. I Relink K. Sayang U Jugak Laa. How Are U????

(alia) Hello babe(: Your kids are so cute!
And you're such a strong lady. Takecare
- Hello. Are U Alia Qistina? Or Another Alia? LOL. Thanks Alot! Take Care Too Alrights. (:

(faiizura) heyy , will
link you up pretty soon okays ? link faii jugaq kay darling (:
- Okeh Babe. Sure Thang.
(:

(elly) hello nana! how u? da lame tk dgr
cite. msh frends with steph? dalame tk dgr cite korg. hmmm..
- Errrr. Hi, Ni Elly Mane?? Maseh. Close Friends Mah. Hahas.

(EllyKetot) Hi , Was Jz
Bloghopping & End Up At Ur Blog . Hee . Link Nk ?
- Hello. Thanks For Droppin By(: Oke Link Jom. Hehe.

(yumie) ello. i tink u
forget me already.. last tyme i added you as at fwendster.. anw nice blog.. link
me okie. i link u bck. thks.
- Hi. Ouh Ur Cine's GF. Haha, Yeah I Don't Remember U. Hahs. Silly Me. Yeah Lets Link. Welcome. :p

(Anis) ur children are
all cute bam bam..hee!
- Hahs! Thanks! Your Yan's Gf Kan? Link Jom. (:

(eedah) serious or what thats quite fast
.!
- Hahas. Yeahh. Fast Kan. Seems Like Just Yesterday I Gave Birth To Them. (:

2009-03-30T00:18:00.003+08:00

Baby's Coming Home In 7 Hours !!!!

So Excited!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Ahaha!

2009-03-29T01:37:00.005+08:00

Hey Sayangs!

Please Note, This Is Just One Lame Random Update

As Im Bored And There's Nothing Left To Do.

Im Sleepy But I Don't Wish To Turn In!

Hey I Only Have Two Days Free From Work Okes. Hah!

Okay, First Thing First.

I Feel Fucken Rimas With This Hair Of Mine!

If Only I Could Snip It Off! Well, Actually I Could.

Just That At This Point Of Time, I Really Don't Need Any

Nasty Unnecessary Comments Coming From My Dearest Dan. Sumpah Tak Perlu!

He Loves My Hair Long. Well Who Could Blame Him? I Took 4 Years To Finally Reach This Length. Usually I'll Cut Cut Cut! And He Wants It To Either Stay This Length Or Longer. Macam Ala Ala Bollywood Gitu Kot. Hahaha!

I Soooo Want My Old Short Hair. Ala, The One I Had In 2007.

Those Heavily Pregnant Days With Little Ryan In My Belly.

Ala, This One Laa. The One Below. LOL!

Kan Macam Lawa Gitu.

Aman Idop. No Dry Hair, Not Much Split Ends,

Always Falls In Place, No Bad Hair Days,

No Hassles & Much Much More!

Gggrrrrrrrrrr!

See!

Told Cha Its One Lame, Boring, Random Update.

What To Do. Lonely People With No Life. Ahaha.

And Oh,

I Miss This Boy Right Here.

The One Who Stole My Heart.

The One Who's Coming Back From Brunei On Monday Morning.

The One I Can't Wait To See, To hug, To Kiss, To Manja With( ptui! ),

To Sleep With( & i really meant SLEEP eh notty people!), To Talk To & Many More!

Which Boy?

This Boy La.

My Husband !!!!! Hehe.

Oke Bye!

2009-03-28T01:49:00.008+08:00

Because i can't sleep till you're next to me,
No i can't live without you no more.

Its Been What? 12 Days Since He Went. And He's Coming Back Soon.
Yet, Only Today Did I Realise How Much I Miss Him.
Waiting For Your Return Hunnie. I Miss You... So Much..

2009-03-26T01:13:00.006+08:00

Hello World(:

Life's Been Fine.

Counting Down Though.

Four More Days Till He's Back.

Trying To Kill Time. Im Ever So Lonely.

Since He's There, He Has Only Called Thrice.

Yeah, THRICE. How Sad.

Last Call Was At 9.30pm Yesterday And We Only Spoke For About 10 Mins.

ppffftttt.

They Are All Bloody Stupid.

Unsure When They'll Be Back.

So I Took Off On 31st March & 1st April As He Said Most Prolly He'll Be Back On Either One Of These Dates. And Now It Turns Out, He'll Be Back On The 30th, 7.30am.

And 3 Hours Later, I'll Have To Report To Work.

So Darling, Sorry I Can't Fetch You. Balek Sendiri Alright.

None Of This Is My Fault. Blame Your Whoever Who's In-Charge For The Lack Of Information. So I'll See You Monday Night. Boohoo.

Okay So, We've Been Struggling.

And My Cousin Got Me One Of Those Financial Help Brochures.

I've Decided To Talk To Hunnie. We Really Should Apply For The HOPE Scheme.

Esha's Schooling Soon, And Then It'll Be Yan's Turn, My Pay's Never Enough & You, I Wonder When Your Gonna Get A Job After Ns. We Mustn't Take Chances. We've Got To Try Everything That May Lead Us To A Better Life. I Know You Don't Like All These Hassle. AMP La, CDC La. But Hunnie, We've Got To Give It Try. Its The Only Way We'll Survive.

Mom Has Started Working At Watsons SMU. Day Shift. And My Aunt's The One Who Look After The Kids While I Work. Aunty, Your A Star. Thank You So Much. Though You Already Have 3 To Care For, Your Still Willing To Help. I Really Didn't Expect This. I've Troubled Another From My Family. But What To Do? Noone Else Cares. Everyone Only Cares About Themselves. They Forgot About The Promises They Made. They Leave Other People In The Lurch, With The Burden. I Wonder How I'll Be Right Now If It Weren't For My Family. One Thing's For Sure, I'll Forever Carry This Grudge I Have For Those Who Betrayed Me. Cos Its Unfair. Totally. Especially When Im The Only One Being Blamed By Both Sides.

Oh Well, That's About It.

Here Are Some Pics Of Mother-Daughter-Son Bonding Sessions. LOL.

And One Real Cute Video Of My Son. Hehs.

Enjoy & Keep On Tagging(:

Love You All.

2009-03-25T00:12:00.003+08:00

TAG REPLIES !!

( JAZA )ayy darlingg! LUPE NK WISH! k how bad am i!! mampos! HAPPY 19tH BDAY DARLING!!!!!! =) - LOL! Sayang, Takpelah..I Tak Kisah Pon! Hehe. Thank You So Much!! Lotsa Love!!

( Ivanara Barbie )Re-Link Me Bb.. (: - Oke Sayang. (:

( hayl )hey they get back monday morning 730am - Hey. Got It. Thanks!

( Nana Sugarpie )alamak.. terlambat ah.. hapi belated birthday dearies!!! - Hehe! Takpe Sayang. Thanks Alot! Sayang Banyak. (:

( midiosa )arlooo mummy! keke u found me sikkh...=) abeh tknk relink..? jgn lupa add kat msn jgk hor - Hello Dear! Hehe. Yeah I Foun You! Oke I Relink K. Hahas. Msn Pon I Add Nanti K.

( ACAH )helo2 im fine babee. you? makin gumbiraa la dier eh. hehh. btw, relink relink k? thankiuu, tc always pretty. - Hello! Fine Too! Hehe. Maken Happy Ke? Same Je. LOL. Oke I Relink K! Tc Sayang!

( Noni And Simah )HAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPY BIRTHDAY HAPY BIRTHDAY HAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! - My Girls! Thanks Alot. I Love You Both So Very Much. Hugs!

( moktelyamja )HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!! may u be blessed with good life, happiness and success always.. take care :D - Thank You! Insyaallah.. Take Care Too & I Miss You!

( Garda )SIS, happy advance bday yea ! takot terlupa nk wish. so i wish eu bday siang2 sikit. haha. smoga panajng umor dan murah rezeki. All e best in everything eu do =) - Hehe. Thanks Darling! So Sweet Of You! Hope To See You One Day. You Take Care Alright. (:

( lyzzie )nana baby! happy advanced 19th! god. we were such youngsters back then. now look at us. i love you and i hope you're getting along well with life. may you prosper in life okay. together along with dan and your 2 beautiful kids.xoxo.happy 19th, love. :) - Awwww. That's The Sweetest Birthday Wish I've Got. Thanks So Much Babe! Insyaallah Yaa. & I Love You Too!

( nora )hey so u are nana cyber! i recognise u. maybe u dont, btw i yang work kt beach rd. ur hubby usually buy stuffs at my place... - Ouh I Think I Noe U. Hello! Hehe. Camne Leh Jumpa My Blog Eh? U Takde Blog Or Friendster Ke Apa? Thanks For Droppin By(:

( Kika )hey! ur hubby go brunei ke?? coz ma bro g brunei same day as ur hubby! - Err. May I Noe Who U Are? And Yeah, My Hubby Just Left For Brunei On Monday Morning. At About 2am. Same Ker As Ur Bro? Same Camp Kot. Hehe.

( Nana Sugarpie )darlinz.. happy advance birthday!!!!! may ur life be a blessful life always.. aniwae, can tell me what is the third song in your blog tak.. sedap ah - Hehe. Thanks Alot Dear! Insyaallah Blessful Laa Yer. Hehehe. Lagu Tuh Title Nyer Right Here. By Brandy. (:

( elle sweetheart )anak prempuan eu cute (: how old is she ? - Thanks! She's 2 Years & 4 Months Old. (:

( Lala )Where do u werk at? - Werking At Bras Basah Complex!

2009-03-22T03:06:00.001+08:00

Blog Under Construction(:

2009-03-20T01:22:00.003+08:00

OMG! Im Nineteen!

So Am I Suppose To Dread Or Celebrate It? Hah!

A Year Older, A Few Lessons Learnt & Im Half Better Than The Person I Was Last Year.

Wish Me A Better Life Everyone! Heh.

2009-03-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

Happy 4 Years & 8 Months Baby!

( our BGR monthsary btw..)

Missing You So Much!

All I Think About Is YOU.

And You Know Me,

Its Never Easy Sleeping Without Hearing Your Voice.

I Love You.

I WANT MY HUSBAND!

2009-03-17T02:02:00.005+08:00

Hello Lovelies!

I just sent hunnie off at the airport a while ago..

He should be on the plane now. Flight's at 2.05am.

Im gonna miss u babe!

No biggie, just two weeks and he'll be back!

Hope nothing goes wrong..

Take care of yourself!

Birthday's 3 days away and hunnie gave me a surprise..

I really wasn't expecting anything from him..

You guys might as well know, he's no thoughtful, romantic romeo..

He don't usually give a hoot about your special day, apart from our beloved BGR anniversary laa of cos..I wonder why that one means alot to him pulak! LOL. Still, im grateful of cos..

Oke so, he caught me by surprise and got me an advanced birthday present..

My very own LG Cookie aka LG kp500 !!!!

Nokia5800 tak dpat LG pon oke!

As longs as it's touchscreen, im happy!

Thanks hunnie, I Love Sama Youu..

Sorry for blabbering about you not getting me anything nice..Hehs!

The phone's great.

The music's loud, user friendly, light, great games and more!

The only thing is, there's no other damn theme! Im like stuck with this bloody boring one..

Hopefully there'll be themes soon(:

Hunnie's been tryin to blackmail me since he got me the phone..

its like, " i da lik kan u kan, so skarang u kene kasi i kuar ngan kawan i..bleh eh? hehe."

Nabei Button. LOL!

2009-03-12T00:51:00.005+08:00

Hello.

No, I Didn't Go MIA.

Im Just Either Too Busy Or Too Lazy.

LOL.

Here's A Short Update Of My Oh-So-Boring Life.

Happy Reading.

Do Miss Me(:

1st, Just Purchased A New Pair Of Specs. No ThanksTo My Chubby Babyboy For Breaking My 5 Month Old Specs Into Two For The Second Time! Gotta Have A Spare In Case There's A Third Time. I Don't Wish To Travel Blindly From Tampines To Bugis Ever Again! Tapes Sucks! 5 Mins Out And It Gave Way, Thanks So Much Muhd Adryan!

2nd, Hunnie Will Be Flying Off To Brunei In 4 Days, For Two Whole Weeks! Ohh Babe, Im Sure Gonna Miss Youu! And That Means, Lonely Birthday For Me. SOBS! So He's Departing At 2am In The Morning And Arriving At 5am Later On. And Of Cos, Yours Truly Is Always Oh-So-Devoted, So She'll Be There To Send Him Off And To Receive. LOL.

3rd, Hmmm. Work? Sucky As Always. Can't Wait To Get Outta There.

4th, Friends? I Miss My Friends. FUCKEN Much Actually. Best Friend? I Wished I Knew Which One Of You Is. I Miss My Icaaa Though. Meet Me Before You Go Pls.

5th, Family's Fine. Still Have Issues With The Other Side. Still, I Don't Wish To Start A Debate Cum War In Bedok. So, I Guess I'd Rather Suffer In Silence. ALONE. Noone Knows. Noone NEEDS To Know.

2009-02-27T01:36:00.003+08:00

.Selling This.

Seymour Forbes Hunt is a British Investment Bank and a British institution. Considering itself the standard bearer for tradition and property, SPH demands excellence from its staff. On Black Thursday, the names of three girls dominate the Managing Director's meeting. It transpires one snuck into the system with a fake degree. Another has slept with a client while the other broke the banks stringent rules. All three girls will have to go. The barman in The Bull and Gate cannot believe his eyes when Clara, Ella and Virginia, the holy trinity of disgraced employees, spend the afternoon crying, drinking and getting angry in his usually desolate pub. By the time they leave, the girls have hatched a plan. They intend to seek revenge. They may not be Charlie's Angels, but the girls soon discover a talent for pro-active trouble making as they execute their hilarious revenge.

$ 8 Only.

Condition : 9/10.

Any Takers?(:

2009-02-22T14:08:00.002+08:00

The two of you will never know

How much my Love has grown

To Be Blessed By Two

When others have so few

From the moment you were conceived

You were all that I would ever need

To hold you, comfort you and love you both

Is all that I could ever hope

You are my life

You are my hope

To see you both happy

Is my only hope

My happiness has been through you

I loved you both before you were you

There were aches and pains but it was worth it all

I could not foresee what was to be

From the first moment I held you both

My love has only continued to grow

There have never been two children as beautiful as you

Grow up and be strong but don't forget about me

Your futures are bright as anyone can see

when I am gone and in a better place

Remember me more than just a face

I will continue to thank Allah everyday

For my role that I have played.

As I have been blessed with two..

- No, I Didn't Come Up With This.

Found This Somewhere.

Just Love Every Single Word.

Very Much What I Wished I Could Tell My Babies(: